Spare time comes late.

So late that xanga almost turns to an ancient monument.

Done 8 programs in 5 weeks. Working on more & more stupid programs. Sorry that I just cant be passionate for those silly programs. Planing to have some changes in my career later, maybe.  

CNY passed. Mak Ling Ling told me that I might be either extremely good or extremely bad this year. (well, actually I dont buy metaphysic)

I cant see any possibility to get an extremely good year with my bad luck.  

Dare not think about the alternative (touch wood). I have been in my worst years through 06 & 07.  

Things change. Brother back from Melbourne. Aunt 4 emitted to hospital. Someone got born, someone got sick, someone left, someone passed away.

People come, people go.

Keep escaping from the life which meant, and still mean, a lot to me.

Being weeded out due to my own deed, what a series of stupid mistakes.

Some precious are vanishing, voluntarily and involuntarily, actively and passively.

So fxxkin helplessly coward. Don't deserve to be confident either.

Life will find its way out? only for those who deserve that.

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Wish you good luck and ever happiness from the bottom of my heart in every second of my derailed life.

Even though I cant see any opportunities that you'll be reading this.

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